Another panic attack in another party...

As you read by the title, i had another panic attack. Let's start from the beginning!

So it was supposed to be a 'Welcome home' party for Sally's and Zoe's friend, she lived in UK for the past few years. She and her much older boyfriend came home and we wanted to collide 2 things - Our idea of a party AND her 'Welcome back!' party. We were supposed to be there by 7PM, but because the owner of the house was gonna be late from the store himself, we decided to meet up by 8PM at the house. Our friends boyfriend and his HOT friend picked 3 of us up and took us to Zoe's and Ally's home, because they needed to pick up money. Then we went to the store to buy - lime, 2sprites and Martini, which btw because of the future events, we didn't even get to taste!

So we were at the house by 8PM and we went inside. It was like 10minutes since we arrived and boys already offered us a drink. So me and Zoe went upstairs and got 6 glasses(whiskey type of glasses). So they bought a Captain Morgan (whiskey) and a Coca Cola. We got 2:3 in our glass. So 2/3 of whiskey and 1/3 Coca Cola, so it was strong, but i liked it. I wanted to drink for two reasons which i'll explain later. So i drank 2glasses and then Zoe, the Hot friend and other friends boyfriend drove to the store to buy something more. So i started to get sick a little bit, but tried to avoid it. ( I found out at the New Years party that i was going to be the person, who's body rejects alcohol after some amount of time, but i thought that it was just because at New Years we drank a lot and mixed a lot, which is not good, so i thought that buy drinking just one kind of drink i'll be 100% fine.) So after like 10minutes i run to the bathroom and threw up a little bit. Then i asked the Houses owner to make me coffee with milk. I thought that coffee will help, but it didn't. I run ti the bathroom and i was in there for like 5minutes and i thought that a friend called Chris will laugh at me, because he did after the New Years party. But instead he sat on the floor with me and we talked. I told him one reason why i drank - Because of the company and wanting to fit in - then he told me when he got drunk and why he doesn't drink anything. Then Ally came in and took me to the bed upstairs and told me that she'll wake me up in 2 hours. While Ally was getting me a glass of water, Chris asked me for the other reason while i was drinking and i said - I almost was in depression and i don't know what i would've done if i hadn't gotten through it. And i said that i am not fully out of it. She and my friend woke me up and i went downstairs. As soon as i saw more people i run upstairs, because 1 - i just woke up and i looked terrible and 2 - i have anxiety around a lot of people. Then i found Chris in the other room and we just watched a lot of videos for like 2,5hours, so now it was 3AM. The the boyfriend came in and said that he took Zoe to the bed and the she was totally out of it. Two minutes must've passed and she wasn't on the bed, but on the floor. We putted her on the bed and that was the start of my panic attack. I thought something was wrong with her, but she drank 2glasses of whiskey(as me) and blacked out, because not like my body who rejects alcohol before it get's to my head, she gets drunk and she drank vodka (i think, but it was with 75smth, so she was OUT). She went to sleep, but at like 4:30AM Ally went to the bathroom. I guess she was ashamed of me, because the minute she saw me she run back in the bathroom. Chris was the only one who could get her to her room. After 30minutes he hugged me, because i was having a panic attack, because i was so scared about Ally. Then everyone at like 5AM went to sleep and i couldn't. The owner of the house smoked water pipe and me and Chris just slept on the couch and were sleeping. Okey, i was trying to, but if two guys are laughing and yelling next to me, it's not really comforting and quiet. Then me and Chris walked home and i made him promise not to tell my friends what i told him, because i don't want them to worry about me. I love Chris, but only as a friend. He is truly amazing friend, because he helped me calm down after my panic attack, he helped me with Ally and he was nice to me that day. But i love him only as a friend. Nothing more. I hope he doesn't feel something for me, because i don't want it to ruin our friendship!